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Many years ago, I had problems sleeping at night for reasons that I couldn't really define . And they said that if you count sheeps from one to one hundred, you probably sleep before you reach 100. But, to no avail. Then I tried exercise, eating foods that makes one dizzy before sleeping or a glass of red wine. Nothing helped at all. As a believer, I prayed to God, I cried, I read scriptures before going to bed, but none of these helped. I was really desperate. Where was my faith? Then I went to a doctor so that he can prescribe sleeping pills for me. So I begun taking sleeping pills so that I can sleep at night and work at daytime. I know that in the long run if I won't stop taking pills, I will be dependent of the medicine and it won't do me any good. And it is not the kind of life that I wanted to. Besides, it makes me dizzy during daytime and I was depressed and my temper was really short. So, sometimes I tried to stopped , and then no sleep, then begin again and the vicious circle goes on.
After one year of living a miserable life because of lack of sleep and for all the pills that I have taken, I finally decided that I won't take any pills anymore. It just make my life unbearable. I told God that from that time on, I will put my life in His hands. I was to tired trying to make myself sleep. And if I die for lack of sleep, at least I put my life in His hands and that gave me peace . I did not want to try anymore, so I let Him do the rest. That night, I slept very well, without pills . I just trust God.
And that gives me a lesson. I tried to make things happen, I forgot to let God make things work for me. When I finally surrender everything to him, His peace filled my body, soul and spirit. And that cured me.
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It reminds myself of the the story about the sheeps that wanted to cross over the bridge, but there was a monster under the bridge. The small ones just told the monster that a bigger one is coming, so he can take the biggest one instead. Then the small ones crossed over the bridge. Then, it was the biggest sheep's turn to cross over the bridge , but he was bigger than the monster and the monster was defeated.
What I learn from this story is that I have to let God who is bigger than me, fight for me. When the enemy attacks, I just say to him that my God is bigger than you.
How about you? Is there anything to hard for God? He is bigger than our mountains of problems. We only need to put our trust in Him and be obedient!
Now I don't count sheeps, but blessings. When mountains of problems comes, I focus on the promises of God and the assurance that He said " He will never leave us or forsake us.
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