All your bags are packed, you are ready to go. I am standing here outside your door.
I hate to wake you up to say goodbye. Sounds familiar?
This song ( Leaving on a jetplane) is what comes into my mind when I think of you.
You are leaving me soon to travel to a land where they eat nachos, enchiladas , burritos, tamales and mole. Where the main language is Spanish. It will be a big change of atmosphere for you from a small country with ca 5 million people to a bigger country with 113 million people. And to a place where the sun almost shines all year round.
Why is it so hard for me to say goodbye?
For almost 19 years, you had been the apple of my eyes. You had been my comfort when I miss our loved ones too much who is far away from us. You brought joy , comfort and also heartache to me. You teached me to be patient, tolerant and accept what I cannot change.
You know that my life will not be the same again when you leave. Going to eat my meals alone, see tv alone and be alone in the house, talk to myself, unless your father is at home. Happy though that I have a cat to talk to when I am totally alone.
Yes, I am used missimg our loved ones very much, but at least I have you at home. Now, you are going to be away too. Going to a country where I can't be a part of your everyday life. What would it be for you? Maybe better or maybe not.
What would it be for me? The answer is, it is better when you are home with me. But I have to let you go. Home for you will be where your heart is.
Anyway, that is life. Just want to wish you a life where you can reach what you dreamed of. I wish too that your stay there will make you more matured and learned the realities of life and that life is not sunshine all year round. And that it takes hard work to succeed in life.
But remember, no matter what happens in your life, there is always a lesson to be learned.
Well, I supposed there will be more time for blogging, facebooking, reading, writing, crotheting, knitting, cardmaking, picture taking and working for your mother. More time to have quiet time with God. One thing is for sure. I am going to pray more for your safety and for you to find the truth.
I just wish that you take God with you in your heart and in your life. If you do, I won't worry wherever you are going to.
Von voyage to Mexico!
Loving you with all my heart,